Updated: October 31, 2009

I don’t have the degree to discuss about the topic Human nature in a PhD level, but I will say this based on my point of view. We start with, “What is Human Nature?” From Wikipedia, “Human nature is the concept that there is on thing of characteristics, including ways of thinking, feeling and acting, that all ‘normal’ humans have in common.” In short, it’s what every humans think.

There are a lot of theories and ideas out there about this topic, but I would concentrate on British polymath philosopher Herbert Spencer. What did he say? based from Darwin’s “Natural Selection”, he made the popular phrase, “Survival of the Fittest”

This is direct to the point. The strongest is the one who shall remain alive in this world. At some point, yes, I do agree. Who wouldn’t? if the dinosaurs are stronger than the comet, they they would be here, wouldn’t they? Humans evolve. yes? Yes, that’s why old things must be removed. Technology advance in a fast paced where today it’s popular, and tomorrow it’s obsolete.

What does this have to do with my experience? I will talk about “Users”.

Who are the “Users”? The users are the one who basically “uses” you. He or she will use you for their own benefits. It’s not a win-win situation if that’s is what you’re thinking. Living in this world, there are a lot of those kind of people. They will bring you down so they can go up. It’s survival of the fittest.

If you’re not strong enough, then go back in your dream world. In reality, people will bring you down. There are no such thing as true friends. No one will sacrifice for you. In this generation, it’s me, me and me.

I just had my experience with this. A girl from my class.

I met her in college. she’s the lazy and user-type girl I know. exclude the charms, she doesn’t have one. She failed math class and I think only attended 30-45% of the whole lecture. Well, going to the point. PS: She only got a Pass in IT. (same as me LoL)

One day, she asked my Iranian friend about the imagine cup. It’s an annual(?) contest for the best programmers in the whole Australia chosen from different universities. Shocked that I was, I couldn’t get over she would apply. She really never talked to that guy, unless she needs something.

Another one. She suddenly became “too” friendly with me. I know she’s my friend, but she really never talked to me. it was night time, she began im-ing me. I am the one who usually initializes the conversation, but not in this one. In one part of the conversation, this is how it goes.

btw, she’s chinese O:

I would say that love has nothing to do with this though. A possible factor is probably envy, one of the deadly sins. I am the competitive type of person who always aim to be better. so probably hearing that made me furious. but seriously, if the person applying would be somebody I know programming genius, fine, I accept my defeat. well anyway, who am I to judge. I don’t know any better.

This is only a small part of the complex human nature. there are a lot of factors affecting a person’s attitude namely social norms and family background, but this is my defence on this kind of attitude.

The “User”. Beware of those kinds of people

For my first day was quite good.

I did 13 minutes of alternate jogging and walking.
I was already tired since I played Dance dance revolution an hour before and really got myself
into the game and groove on.

Day 1: Success!

Having bought skinny jeans sounds great, but with a low waist line of 36, that changes everything. BTW, I weigh 180 lbs and I am at 5′4 1/2 at height. Starting tomorrow, I would start jogging outside our place for around 30-60 minutes 3-4x a week. I would keep track of my time by updating it here in wordpress.

What inspired me to do this is because of an article I read in a salon. a guy whose a little bit shorter than shaq but wayyy fat. His life changed when he dedicated 3-4x a week running 70 minutes. Of course this includes diet. I already lost my fight with going to gym, and cutting down on chocolates, but that doesn’t mean I will not try. This is my hope.

For all those who has the same situation as me. feel free to do the same thing as me. JOGGING AND DIET.
This will change our lives for a better.

Ok, this is a guide on items with no picture, because I am writing this from school.

version 6.64
+New Recipes

1) Rexxar
a) Power Threads
b) Vladimir
c) SnY
d) Battle Fury (if you want)
e) Heart
f) Any Killer item you want

2) Axe
a) Vanguard
b) Blink Dagger
c) Defiance (if you’re fighting a bunch of int)
d) Shiva’s guard
e) Heart of Tarras x 2

Note: You won’t need boots to the fact that you can own with just blink if you prioritize getting it. If you feel you need as you have enemies like balanar, then get boots. No battle fury because his ASPD is slow.

3) Chen (Jungle + Sure Hero Kill = items )
a) Boots of travel
b) Mekans
c) Helm of Dominator
d) Radiance
e) Aghanims (every 30 second heal? lol)
f) desolator probably.

Note: This items are for jungle-monsters user, and hero killer. IMBA in short.

As far as my situation is concerned, it’s actually getting academically better.

current news about XayKogeki.

1) I am now starting another term in college (Different from University).  I actually love my current subjects which are as follows:
a) Business Statistics
b) Introduction to Management
c) Software Technology 1
d) Database Design
With this, I can now officially say I am closer to my dream of  becoming a game developer. I am now being equipped with the necessary skills to be one. JAVA is probably one of the things, and when I get to university, I will go to C++, which is the main thing in developing. Well, I will still apply for PR here, so I might take 3D graphics or something related to video game developing. Regarding work load, I will be heavily loaded, but still have time to play.

2) AFAIK, I actually only discovered my recent problem, I am a paranoid person(personality disorder). I don’t have medical certificate to prove I am one, but this is based on reading the descriptions, and is happening to me in the long run.

3) The girl I like really hurt me. She’s not saying anything, but as stated above, I am a paranoid person. She really doesn’t know how much I really love her, and how much I really care about her. I know it’s hard having her 22 years old, and I am 18, but I really do love her. She’s not pretty, but I can sense something different. Well, I made a deal with God and my other self that in Yahoo Messenger, MSN or any possible communication, I am only asking one thing, that she will ask “How was your day?”. That’s all I am asking. if not, then for now, I am currently disregarding any feelings I have.

BTW, what irony. While going to the next class today, after accompanying my friend for lunch, he stopped at the table of his friend. There is this girl, who is cute, but probably already in a relationship. She knows I do magic lol. so anyway, After a few minutes, she just asked me, “How’s your life?”. I was like, “Fun, ______” forgot what I said.

but reflecting to that, I told myself, “wasn’t that suppose to be someone’s line?”.
that got me thinking.

4) I am now currently practicing to be a card sharp. I have 8 videos by known card-sharp Jason England. (see opening credits of movie  “Shade”) I can now do 1 -2 false shuffles, and dealings from bottom and strike second, and the one-hand turnover swift also known as the macmillan switch.

5) BTW, for people watching my posts on “Dota Hero Items ___”, I will posting some more, as I played DotA in Australian Room in Garena from some time now (Version 6.63b). I will also be playing Diablo 2 on Battle.net, I just don’t know when. Oh well.

6) Regarding piano, I am done on my 1/5 pages for moonlight sonata 1st phase. It’s beginning to be slower due to the fact that I am practicing another song, Butterfly lovers, a chinese song introduced to me by the girl I like (see story above).

This is the current situation of Xaykogeki. Stay tune for more updates.

I found this song to be awesome….

Credits: http://minsarang.wordpress.com/2009/09/15/lyrics-super-junior-m-super-girl-chi-rom-eng/

Ping Yin:

Oh~chao ji chao ji de nü hai

kan wo, kan kan wo, bu yao zong shi xiang zhe ta
bu ai, bu ai, ta bu ai ni
ni de wan mei sheng guo ta
bu yao ding zhe na shou ji
bu yao zai na san xin er yi
ni ming bai de, ni qing chu de, wo chao ji de nü hai
you shi hou xiang qi ta song ni de hua, diu diao kuai diu diao ba
hai you ta na zui mi ren de wei xiao, wang diao kuai wang diao ba
ta de wen rou hai hui rang ni dian dao, xing lai kuai xing lai ba
ni de hao shi duo me shen mi
qing rang wo hao hao di bao mi

Oh my Super girl, ni shi wo de Baby girl
ta kan bu jian ni de mei li, ping fan bei hou de mo li
Oh my Super girl, wo shi ni de super man
ni de yan shen rang wo zhao mi
wei le ni wo shen me dou yuan yi

Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)

kan wo kan kan wo, bu yao zong shi sui zhe ta
ru guo ta shou xi huan ni, jiu suan zai mang ye neng gou deng dao ni
na yi ding shi ta shou de huang hua
na yi ding bu shi zhen xin de hua

Oh~bie xiang xin ba, li kai ba
Oh~kuai hui dao wo shen bian lai
you shi hou xiang qi ta song ni de hua, diu diao kuai diu diao ba
hai you ta na zui mi ren de wei xiao, wang diao kuai wang diao ba
ta de wen rou hai hui rang ni dian dao, xing lai kuai xing lai ba
ni de hao shi duo me shen mi
qing rang wo hao hao di bao mi

Oh my Super girl, ni shi wo de Baby girl
ta kan bu jian ni de mei li, ping fan bei hou de mo li
Oh my Super girl, wo shi ni de super man
ni de yan shen rang wo zhao mi
wei le ni wo shen me dou yuan yi
kai xin de, nan guo de

da ying ni, dou pei ni, dou pei ni
zun bei le quan shi jie zui hao de ai, zui gui de ai
deng ni ban jin wo de xin li lai
xing fu de quan li bu yao fang qi
quan shi jie zui wan mei de wei yi

Oh my Super girl, ni shi wo de Baby girl
ta kan bu jian ni de mei li, ping fan bei hou de mo li
Oh my Super girl, wo shi ni de super man
ni de yan shen rang wo zhao mi
wei le ni wo shen me dou yuan yi

ni shi wo zui chao ji de nü hai (bie zai deng dai, deng dai)
gen zhe wo yi qi fei dao wei lai (ai qing bu yong cai pai cai pai)
wo shi ni zui chao ji de yi lai(bie zai deng dai deng dai)
gen zhe wo yi qi fei dao wei lai (ai qing bu yong cai pai cai pai)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~

Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)

English Version:

Oh~super, super girl
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~

look at me, look at me, dont’ keep thinking about him
don’t love, don’t love, he doesn’t love you
Your perfection surpass him
Don’t look at the hand phone any more
Don’t hesitate anymore
You understand You’re clear My super girl
You remember the times he gave you flowers, throw it away, quickly throw it away
and also his charming smile forget it, quickly forget it
his gentleness may make you dazed. wake up, faster wake up
You seemed so mysterious
let me keep it a secret

Oh my Super girl, you are my Baby girl
he can’t see your beauty, ordinary back charm
Oh my Super girl, I’m your super man
your eyes hypnotize me
I’ll do anything for you
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)

look at me, look at me, don’t keep following him
If he says he likes you, no matter how busy you are, he’ll wait for you
He must be lying
That is not his sincere words
Oh~don’t believe, leave
Oh~ come back to my side

You remember the times he gave you flowers, throw it away, quickly throw it away
and alos his charming smile forget it, quickly forget it
his gentleness may make you dazed. wake up, faster wake up
You seemed so mysterious
let me keep it a secret

Oh my Super girl, you are my Baby girl
he can’t see your beauty, ordinary back charm
Oh my Super girl, I’m your super man
your eyes hypnotize me
I’ll do anything for you

Happily, sorrowfully
I promise you, to always be with you,to always be with you
Prepared the world’s best love, most expensive love
Waiting for you to move into my heart
Don’t give up the power of happiness
The one and only world’s most beautiful

Oh my Super girl, you are my Baby girl
he can’t see your beauty, ordinary back charm
Oh my Super girl, I’m your super man
your eyes hypnotize me
I’ll do anything for you

You are my awesome super girl (Don’t wait anymore, anymore)
Come and fly to the future with me (Love doesn’t need to be rehearse, rehearse)
I’m your super (source of strength) (Don’t wait anymore, anymore)
Come and fly to the future with me (Love doesn’t need to be rehearse, rehearse)

Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)

Chinese Words 中国词

Oh~ 超级超级的女孩
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~

看我看看我 不要总是想着他
不爱不爱他不爱你
你的完美胜过他
不要盯着那手机
不要再那三心二意
你明白的 你清楚的 我超级的女孩

有时候想起他送你的花 丢掉快丢掉吧
还有他那最迷人的微笑 忘掉快忘掉吧
他的温柔还会让你颠倒 醒来快醒来吧
你的好是多么神秘
请让我好好地保密

Oh my Super girl 你是我的 Baby girl
他看不见你的美丽 平凡背后的魔力
Oh my Super girl我是你的 Super Man
你的眼神让我着迷
为了你我什么都愿意

Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)

看我看看我 不要总是随着他
如果他说喜欢你 就算再忙也能够等到你
那一定是他说的谎话
那一定不是真心的话
Oh~ 别相信吧 离开巴
Oh~ 快到我的身边来

有时候想起他送你的花 丢掉快丢掉吧
还有他那最迷人的微笑 忘掉快忘掉吧
他的温柔还会让你颠倒 醒来快醒来吧
你的好是多么神秘
请让我好好地保密

Oh my Super girl 你是我的 Baby girl
他看不见你的美丽 平凡背后的魔力
Oh my Super girl我是你的 Super Man
你的眼神让我着迷
为了你我什么都愿意

开心地 难过地
答应你 都陪你 都陪你
?了 全世界最好的爱 最贵的爱
等你搬进我的心里来
幸福的权利不要放弃
全世界最完美的唯一

Oh my Super girl 你是我的 Baby girl
他看不见你的美丽 平凡背后的魔力
Oh my Super girl我是你的 Super Man
你的眼神让我着迷
为了你我什么都愿意

你是我最超级的女孩 (别再等待等待)
跟着我一起飞到未来 (爱情不用彩排彩排)
我是你最超级的依赖 (别再等待等待)
跟着我一起飞到未来 (爱情不用彩排彩排)

Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love)

桃花塢裏桃花庵，
桃花庵裏桃花仙，
桃花仙人種桃樹，
又摘桃花換酒錢。

別人笑我太瘋顫,
我笑他人看不穿,
不見五陵豪傑墓,
無花無酒鋤作田.

Translation:

The temple is located inside the peach blossom garden.
There is a firy of peach blossom.
The fairy of peach blossom planted the peach blossom trees
she traded the flowers for sweet wine.

the people thought I was insane.
but they don’t really understand me.
Can’t you see the graves of the heroes?
No flowers, no wine, but who cares?

在我们的班级里，有着一个很可爱的男孩。我想他最近的情绪很不稳定。时而沮丧，时而兴奋，我想他一定是爱上了你。。。不过他不好意思对你说，我实在不忍心看他左右徘徊，所以我来告诉你。

Hey guys,

I know no one will be reading this since no one reads my blog, but oh well. Here are some updates regarding me, myself, and I.

1) I will officially be stop posting Dota Hero Items (for good). For all of you who keeps reading my old posts, God save your lives. You can’t even read what I posted to stop looking at those. Why won’t I delete it? lazy….
for those who believed I helped them (even a little), then thank you for taking time reading my posts. For those who keeps saying I am noob(People who keeps reading my #1 post) I am sorry, I can’t help cure your stupidity.

2) I will be posting less and less things around here. I am a bit busy nowadays (college life). but who cares?

3) For all Aya Hirano Fans, I am sorry. I will be a fan no more. It’s not she’s becoming ugly or anything, but it’s my way of helping me stop “anime”. STOPPING IN ANIME?! WTFOMG! I digress, yeah…I know. It’s also not that I am becoming old, but I don’t see much Anime right now with a “respectable” story.

Animes to Remember:

(Not all of these are “respectable”, but they can be considered awesome and one of the most watched during the time I watched anime.)
1) Kanon
2) Air
3) Cooking Master Boy
4) Curious Play
5) Sailor Moon
6) Doraemon
7) Voltes 5
8 ) The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi
9) Others…..

Of course, I still find her attractive, and will always be in my memories, but it will be a long time again before I dig deep enough to find it. Sayonara Aya-san!

4) Still no GF, yeah, worthless topic. Next

5) I will be concentrating on Street magic. Considering a bit of “serendipity” that I finally got a copy of Jason England’s Foundations, I will be busy with it.

Well, this is the update for now. For all my faithful readers, you’ll still hear from me, for the others, then…good luck with your life.