“User” in this World – A Depressed Person’s Point of View and Experience

 

Updated: October 31, 2009

I don’t have the degree to discuss about the topic Human nature in a PhD level, but I will say this based on my point of view. We start with, “What is Human Nature?” From Wikipedia, “Human nature is the concept that there is on thing of characteristics, including ways of thinking, feeling and acting, that all ‘normal’ humans have in common.” In short, it’s what every humans think.

There are a lot of theories and ideas out there about this topic, but I would concentrate on British polymath philosopher Herbert Spencer. What did he say? based from Darwin’s “Natural Selection”, he made the popular phrase, “Survival of the Fittest”

This is direct to the point. The strongest is the one who shall remain alive in this world. At some point, yes, I do agree. Who wouldn’t? if the dinosaurs are stronger than the comet, they they would be here, wouldn’t they? Humans evolve. yes? Yes, that’s why old things must be removed. Technology advance in a fast paced where today it’s popular, and tomorrow it’s obsolete.

What does this have to do with my experience? I will talk about “Users”.

Who are the “Users”? The users are the one who basically “uses” you. He or she will use you for their own benefits. It’s not a win-win situation if that’s is what you’re thinking. Living in this world, there are a lot of those kind of people. They will bring you down so they can go up. It’s survival of the fittest.

If you’re not strong enough, then go back in your dream world. In reality, people will bring you down. There are no such thing as true friends. No one will sacrifice for you. In this generation, it’s me, me and me.

I just had my experience with this. A girl from my class.

I met her in college. she’s the lazy and user-type girl I know. exclude the charms, she doesn’t have one. She failed math class and I think only attended 30-45% of the whole lecture. Well, going to the point. PS: She only got a Pass in IT. (same as me LoL)

One day, she asked my Iranian friend about the imagine cup. It’s an annual(?) contest for the best programmers in the whole Australia chosen from different universities. Shocked that I was, I couldn’t get over she would apply. She really never talked to that guy, unless she needs something.

Another one. She suddenly became “too” friendly with me. I know she’s my friend, but she really never talked to me. it was night time, she began im-ing me. I am the one who usually initializes the conversation, but not in this one. In one part of the conversation, this is how it goes.

btw, she’s chinese O:

Anonymous: i was thinking about weather i go to school to ask you to teach me math or not
Anonymous:  but i am not sure when i can get up tomorrow
Erick: ahh
Erick: anytime you want..as long as I don’t have class

Out of no where, this came out. Ok, A lot of you will probably be saying. hey, she’s just asking for help, but I know her. She is the type who only makes friend to benefit herself. She doesn’t talk to my Iranian friend. What’s with that sudden interest? What made me say Yes? Let’s just say I fell in love with her a few months back.

I would say that love has nothing to do with this though. A possible factor is probably envy, one of the deadly sins. I am the competitive type of person who always aim to be better. so probably hearing that made me furious. but seriously, if the person applying would be somebody I know programming genius, fine, I accept my defeat. well anyway, who am I to judge. I don’t know any better.

This is only a small part of the complex human nature. there are a lot of factors affecting a person’s attitude namely social norms and family background, but this is my defence on this kind of attitude.

The “User”. Beware of those kinds of people

Operation: Get Thin

For my first day was quite good.

I did 13 minutes of alternate jogging and walking.
I was already tired since I played Dance dance revolution an hour before and really got myself
into the game and groove on.

Day 1: Success!

Operation “GET THIN”

Having bought skinny jeans sounds great, but with a low waist line of 36, that changes everything. BTW, I weigh 180 lbs and I am at 5′4 1/2 at height. Starting tomorrow, I would start jogging outside our place for around 30-60 minutes 3-4x a week. I would keep track of my time by updating it here in wordpress.

What inspired me to do this is because of an article I read in a salon. a guy whose a little bit shorter than shaq but wayyy fat. His life changed when he dedicated 3-4x a week running 70 minutes. Of course this includes diet. I already lost my fight with going to gym, and cutting down on chocolates, but that doesn’t mean I will not try. This is my hope.

For all those who has the same situation as me. feel free to do the same thing as me. JOGGING AND DIET.
This will change our lives for a better.

DotA Hero Items # 9

Ok, this is a guide on items with no picture, because I am writing this from school.

My Current Situation

As far as my situation is concerned, it’s actually getting academically better.

current news about XayKogeki.

1) I am now starting another term in college (Different from University).  I actually love my current subjects which are as follows:
a) Business Statistics
b) Introduction to Management
c) Software Technology 1
d) Database Design
With this, I can now officially say I am closer to my dream of  becoming a game developer. I am now being equipped with the necessary skills to be one. JAVA is probably one of the things, and when I get to university, I will go to C++, which is the main thing in developing. Well, I will still apply for PR here, so I might take 3D graphics or something related to video game developing. Regarding work load, I will be heavily loaded, but still have time to play.

2) AFAIK, I actually only discovered my recent problem, I am a paranoid person(personality disorder). I don’t have medical certificate to prove I am one, but this is based on reading the descriptions, and is happening to me in the long run.

3) The girl I like really hurt me. She’s not saying anything, but as stated above, I am a paranoid person. She really doesn’t know how much I really love her, and how much I really care about her. I know it’s hard having her 22 years old, and I am 18, but I really do love her. She’s not pretty, but I can sense something different. Well, I made a deal with God and my other self that in Yahoo Messenger, MSN or any possible communication, I am only asking one thing, that she will ask “How was your day?”. That’s all I am asking. if not, then for now, I am currently disregarding any feelings I have.

BTW, what irony. While going to the next class today, after accompanying my friend for lunch, he stopped at the table of his friend. There is this girl, who is cute, but probably already in a relationship. She knows I do magic lol. so anyway, After a few minutes, she just asked me, “How’s your life?”. I was like, “Fun, ______” forgot what I said.

but reflecting to that, I told myself, “wasn’t that suppose to be someone’s line?”.
that got me thinking.

4) I am now currently practicing to be a card sharp. I have 8 videos by known card-sharp Jason England. (see opening credits of movie  “Shade”) I can now do 1 -2 false shuffles, and dealings from bottom and strike second, and the one-hand turnover swift also known as the macmillan switch.

5) BTW, for people watching my posts on “Dota Hero Items ___”, I will posting some more, as I played DotA in Australian Room in Garena from some time now (Version 6.63b). I will also be playing Diablo 2 on Battle.net, I just don’t know when. Oh well.

6) Regarding piano, I am done on my 1/5 pages for moonlight sonata 1st phase. It’s beginning to be slower due to the fact that I am practicing another song, Butterfly lovers, a chinese song introduced to me by the girl I like (see story above).

This is the current situation of Xaykogeki. Stay tune for more updates.